Thursday, March 20, 2014

Week 4 in Italy

This week was a struggle. We had a number of cancellations, and a number of rejections. We also had a number of really great positive things happen as well. Unfortunately, my back was really bad this week. I had to rest on sunday, monday night, and we didn't go out and do anything exciting for p-day today. For me, it's been extremely frustrating feeling like my own weaknesses are limiting the work we can do. I don't want to be the reason that someone doesn't hear the gospel. I have felt really frustrated and really upset the past couple days. But this morning, my mind was taken once again to Christ. The things that He suffered, the things that He went though, are far greater, far more painful, and far more difficult than I will ever have to face in my entire existence. I felt comfort and peace knowing that I am not alone. I am not the only one who has felt what I am feeling now. Christ knows perfectly, and because of His atonement, I have felt peace in my heart and mind that are helping me to move forward and find the right balance between taking care of my body and pushing myself. That balance is something that I have never been very good at... But I am doing my best to figure it out right now with the help of prayer and the guidance of the spirit. 

We had zone conference on monday, and it was awesome. We talked a lot about how we can best work with members. Members of the church and full time missionaries are meant to work together. The building up of the kingdom of God is not the sole responsibility of the full time missionaries. It is VITAL that the missionaries and the members work together in trust and love to share the gospel with friends, family, coworkers, neighbors, etc. In my mind, the only difference between a member and a full time missionary is the name tag and the rules! (And we've been set apart by priesthood authority as full time missionaries.) If you find yourself thinking, "Man, I really love the gospel, and it has blessed my life in countless ways! But it's so hard and so scary to talk about it with anyone!" , then you are in the exact same place as me. Sharing the gospel can be scary. But why? Rejection. We fear that our attempt to share this incredible and wonderful blessing that we have been given with those around us might result in some sort of awkward situation or a lost friendship. But I testify and promise that you will never EVER  regret sharing your testimony of the Savior Jesus Christ, the love our Heavenly Father has for us, and the message of the restored gospel. Give the missionaries referrals! PLEASE! Work with them! Invite your friends to activities or dinners or lessons where the missionaries will be present. Ask the missionaries if you can go to lessons with them! There will never be a better time than right now to share the message and hope that the restored gospel bring. When we share the gospel with others, we are showing our gratitude to our Father in Heaven for all that we have been given, and especially for all of the blessings that the gospel has brought into our lives. I know that as missionaries and members seek to work together. The gospel of Jesus Christ is true. It brings happiness, peace, and comfort to all who live it. How could you not want to share those things and those blessings with the ones you love and care about? 

Anyway. That's it for my member missionary schpeel. 

I am so grateful to be here right now. It is difficult. My body hurts. I am exhausted. I feel so many emotions throughout the day for myself, for the people we teach, for all of you back home. There are challenges that come every single day. But there are countless tender mercies. There are countless moments of relief and joy. 

My companion and I got to sing together at the zone conference on Monday. We basically just walk around Torino singing together all day, as well as talking to people. We've gotten really good at taking songs and changing them to be mission/gospel related. We actually did it with one song, and decided to teach it to the other sorelle in our district. Our final district meeting of the transfer will be next monday. Our district leader will be heading home that week. His two years are up! So we decided that at that last meeting, we're going to do a flash mob with this song... Hopefully one of the sorelle will record it, and I can send it next week. Should be fun! 

Anyway. 

All my white laundry got ruined this week. Oops. 

(Mom. I'll email you... I need a few favors!)

Also, I haven't mentioned this yet, but we teach an english class every wednesday night with the Anziani. The four of us teach english to anyone that wants to come! It's really fun. 

Next week will be 5th week, which means that I will be senior companion. Basically I'll be in charge of the map, figuring out how to get us everywhere and anywhere, answering the phone, and keeping track of all the numbers... I'm a little nervous... I feel like I'm not ready to take over on the phone yet! I have a hard enough time understanding people in person, let alone on the phone! But I'll just pray extra hard next week. 

I love you all. 

Thanks for your prayers. :)

love,

sorella tokarski